Here I am again

Hi there again. I have been at the psychiatric clinic section one from thuesday night to today, thursday. I am suicidal and I have drunk paint. I'm not kidding. I want to go away, because I can't take this. I'm completely empty inside, my core is asleep. This didn't work unfortunately, since I didn't do a thing. I got to calm down, wich was great. I got some time to sleep wich I really needed. Unfortunately I'm still incredibly tired, but what can I do?