So what?

I start to feel like something is wrong. I feel a dreamy haze over everything, wich makes me afraid again. But it doesn't really matter now, since everything scares me. Everything around me sounds, feels and smells so very strange, as though it's not really what it should be. It also seem´s that life is only about watching tv, knitting, talking and drinking coffee. Where is all the adventure? Where is the excitement? Is there nothing more to life than this? I have sat down on my bed and watched tv for several weeks no´w. But I want to swim through strong water and climb high mountains.