It's difficult to explain

Well, I think I made the last post too short. where was I? yes I remember now. Is there nowhere for me? I can't be at hospital, I can't be ome, I can't be at bure or even in norway! and I am so empty inside and I cry. i recognize myself in Evanescence's song Missing. I know they won't miss me. they may for a day or to, but then it will be fine. I am alive, but I'm dead or in deep sleep inside. I'm crying inside and I try to keep it in. I'm just an empty shell and they have lost me long ago. It hurts so much inside. I just want to end that horrible pain, because the soul is missing from me and the absence of it, even though they don't even notice, leaves an emptyness that is a hundred times bigger than me and hurts. I cry so much. well, I'm glad I can confide in you.